So I’m genderqueer, specifically I don’t have any feelings of “I am a man” or “I am a woman” at all, ever. HOWEVER, I do have feelings of “oh today I want to wear that dress that has all of the boobs!” and “today I would like to have none of the boobs whatsoever, thank you.” When I wear a push up bra, I’m not dressing as a woman, and when I bind my chest, I’m not dressing as a man. It’s just what I feel like looking like that day. If I had a binder that would fit under any of my dresses (damn low necklines!) I would wear the two together!
Lately I’ve been binding a lot and dressing in a way coded very masculine. This may or may not be related to finally watching the L Word and being madly attracted to Shane. <.< >.> >.<
Anyway, I thought I’d post some pictures. P
(I’m sure you can read backwards. Damn photobooth!)
I’d say about 90% of the time, binding is just too much effort and discomfort for me. But sometimes I just need to, you know? I feel like my body wasn’t meant to be static in anatomy, even though most humans are.
I was looking at my Photobooth photos over the past several years today, and it’s funny - I look at myself when I lived abroad, and was trying to be the most feminine I’d ever been - trying to fit into womanhood by experimenting with the associated trappings. I look amazing, in most of those photos. I think “I wish I looked that good now.” And then I remember how fucking miserable and confused I was, and how many of those distresses realizing my identity and embracing it and cutting my hair and buying a binder - all of it! - just resolved, almost overnight, and I regret nothing. After all, I’ll probably look at these pictures in a year or so and thing “Damn! I looked awesome! I wish I looked that awesome now.”
"Your question is: why am I so interested in politics? But if I were to answer you very simply, I would say this: why shouldn’t I be interested? That is to say, what blindness, what deafness, what density of ideology would have to weigh me down to prevent me from being interested in what is probably the most crucial subject to our existence, that is to say the society in which we live, the economic relations in which it functions, and the system of power which defines the regular forms and the regular permissions and prohibitions of our conduct. The essence of our life consists after all, of the political functioning of the society in which we find ourselves. So I can’t answer the question of why should I be interested; I could only answer it by asking why shouldn’t I be interested? Not to be interested in politics, thats what constitutes a problem. You should ask someone who is not interested in politics; “Why, damn it, are you not interested?"
— Michel Foucault, The Chomsky-Foucault Debate: On Human Nature, 2006 (via thesubversivesound)
(Source: rabeeali, via downlo)